Cannot sleep

I am afraid. Very much afraid. And scared. Now I think about it, I actually didn't know the difference between afraid and scared LOL

But scare have the form scary while afraid don't have 'afraidy'

Now I think I understand

I am troubled, anxious, scared, afraid, worried, etc
My stomach is uneasy and I am uh, dunno, restless
And why should it comes now of any other time? I want to sleep. I need to sleep

Some junior of mine said that ahe need to confide something to me but didn't

Well
Goodnight, sleepiness come over me now, thanks goodness

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So it was difficult...

Wow, it is sooo dificult to write something on a daily basis. I mean, maybe I could produce some idea, but to develop them nicely into some good passages is so time consuming I am wondering how some people could manage that and make it their sources of bread and wine (Why wine I wonder?? It's expensive!!)

I will try to keep up and report here and there LOL but maybe it will be just inconsistent rumbling.

Today I watched Shingeki no Kyojin and I have to admit that it is good and thought provoking. I think maybe I will write something on the anime account... Maybe there are no need, because, well, I am sure that many people have done it, but... Well. Yeah.

Ah ya, another matter! I finnished hasfit 2nd day beginner program. Yesterday my muscle is still sore after pushing my motorcycle alone in the darkness for I don't know how far (*cue dramatic BG*) and I resent my father a bit for letting his only DAUGHTER do that. But well... I think that is what make me strong ._.

I really hope my diet do something good, I really want to lose at least 2 kg and reach 70kg this month.

Thank you :3

Mingle With God

Oh Gosh, I hope I spelt 'mingle' correctly. Never thought it is wrong, but who knows?
Alas, what happend, happened already

I made this one blog to document my journey to be closer to God over the year. I am Christian, and I hope I have been a good Christian all along, but not very full of religious-spirit, I love Jesus and Christianity but thought little about church rules, altough I abide them.

Anyway, I really long to be closer to God, it seems nice - and my supervisor advise me to take notes of any of God's messages I received, and I think, might as well made some writings and share it

I hope in the end it will be clear that I am closer to God, and being a better person than I am now

First day

Hi, um... This blog, unlike many former mine before, will just made to report the progress I made daily in order to made my life better. It will contain my journey to lose weight

Here it is, first day
I am starting the 30 days begginner low impact workout program
Hasfit first day begginner program
I don't really feel like doing this because I am quite confident that I am in way better shape than what this exercise require. But alas, everyone has to start somewhere, and I think it is a good start now. I hope I won't get bored and stop, like many others and many former trial XD, I can't keep a commitment for even 20 days LOL
Good exercise, I don't feel any fatigue, but I haven't exercise for weeks so this is a good start
Actually, I think the dynamic strecthing is more exhausting than the main exercise :D
Well, that's that.

Closer to God Day one

Actually, I want to open one more blogs to blog about this, but well, closer to God is really just another mind- bugging things, so I should just do it here, don't you think so? Hahaha
So, I will just made a new tag closer to god

Well, I was told to document any messages from God I receive these days, so, I think, might as well blog about it. I nearly forgot I have this blog. Really. Like, for real.

Anyway, let's start

Actually, you could say it starts yesterday. It's form Job 1 : 22
In all these things Job sinned not by his lips, nor spoke he any foolish thing against God. 

The part that are given to me is " nor spoke any foolish thing"
Right, really, I have never consider myself near Job at all. He is so good and kind and righteous. And I absolutely didn't feel inclined to undergo the same things God allow Satan to gave him, provoked by Satan

But what made me feel like I am a very bad person is the fact that Job didn't say any foolish things...
He went under all kinds of torture and keep true, and never once saying any accussiations, blaming others, dirty words...
Me, I used to hate complaining and people who complaint. And I absolutelly hate swears. BUt  nowadays, all of that things escape my mouth so very easily. I am ashamed. I am stressed out, I know, but actually, who suffer more - me or Job? And he is still able to hold his mouth. Me, what am I doing?

I know, one of the source of my bad mouth is my commingling. Assocciation. But what's done is done, and I will try to talk more cautiously now :)